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"Never explain yourself. Your friends don't need it, your enemies won't belive it."

True story :]

2010. január 29., péntek


I had such a horrible day, had a fight with my bf, took 4tranquilizers and fall asleep for like 2-3hours - that was a good part actually- and than we made an Oreo cake my bf got for his bd, and we are waiting for it to get ready (you just gotta mix the ingredients and put it in the freezer).

Have you ever had a panic attack? Because everytime i get hurt and get stressed im quite fucking close to it. Maybe my head doctor is right and i don't need other medicine for my blood-pressure just some Sanax.
Not too young to get on it? Whatever...
I so wish i was very rich in this moment, because i would go to a sanatorium right now, some massage , chat with a psychologist and aromatherapy would kick me back in life.

Maybe i read about spoilt rich NY girls too much? Sometimes i feel guilty of not reading any proper literature, but i read in english most of the time and that makes me feel emancipated.

My day started in the hospital with an other checkup, but my kidnes are very very fine, and my maxillary sinus is fine too, i don't have to visit every week anymore - if anyone is interested :D


So The Visitor(movie) was great, its a great combination of some sad deporting story with some passionate african-drum music, very enjoyable :)

I keep on wondering about how can other girls stand this cold, i keep on seeing girls wearing skirts and not a lot of clothes from very cold places like sweden or russia, and everytime i have to go out i wear tons of sweaters and tights under my pants, and sometimes my bf's feather coat which makes me look like a huge snowman, and i am still cold.
What's the matter with me? Or just all those people have cars? Or maybe public transport is much better there because we don't even have heating on the buses...

I guess im just way too blue to write anything here which would actually make anyone excited so i will finish here.

Here is a picture we took last week at the castle.

Have fun at friday night!

2010. január 28., csütörtök

Almost a month...

It's almost feb and i finally found out what account i used to sign in my blog... Have i told im pretty much a loser most of the time? Whatever... not trying to be a complainer as well.

But i will have to start with complaining still. Oh dear New Years Evening.. it was suuuuuch a disaster!
The party we planned to go seemed to be a great idea, the Utopia party which takes places in a "virgin" club every year, and that place was the "Glass Palace" (Üvegpalota) in the heart of the city.
Bottom line, we missed the pre-sale of the tickets, so we could only try at NYE again.
We had a couple of drinks at a turkish exchange student girl's flat, and than 3of us went to buy the tickets, but it came out they can't guarantee the accession even if you have a ticket already. That is very nice, fuck you very much.
So the tipical "let's go find a place - pilgrimage" started, and we ended up on the streets, got kicked out of a house party of some spoilt snob buda-kids before we even got there, and ended up in the rain on the other side of the city, very far from home...
What can i say?
If there is a flat available plus some friends, never expect better than that!

Than the other disaster was when 2010 started with a stryke, the stryke of the public transport company to be specific, which meant 5days of total traveling death in the whole capital of Budapest. It was incredibly pissing. We were scratching each other's bottoms home. So boring.

On the 5th of january i went to the hospital to get operated with a cysta in my face, everything went well, except i spent a night with two little kids and their mothers in the hospital room, and it was way too warm, and i could only breathe through my mouth because my nose was blocked with a bandage i had to change in every hour cuz i was bleeding so much. I made it, even though the operation lasted 1hour 20mins instead of 15-20mins as they said.

I have high blood pressure (very high), so they sent me to checkups, and it came out i have glaucoma on both eyes.

Bottom line, im taking two kind of drugs to my blood-pressure, and two kind of eyedrops to my glaucoma in the moment.
Good news I finally got the drug with the lactose enzyme, so i can eat some milk products if i take one before. I could finally drink hot chocolate without belly pains and allergic reacton. Hurray!

These things are not bringing me down anymore, just the temperature is killing me here!
Already 32 people died in the cold in january (in Hungary) and most of the people in their own houses, i think thats pretty sad.
What is sad for me that i don't have a car.
Good thing again i convinced my bf to not go to the shopping mall today, but on saturday when my mom lends us the car. Have i mentioned i love to drive?

There is one thing i love about the snow : at night, it's never dark, that magical pinkish light covers everything, and it's so so gorgeous!
We take my dog to the field every night, he loves to run around in the snow and play with my bf.

Other sad thing in january is the exchange students leaving who only came here for one semester, and a russian guy Oljeg left as well, he was my boyfriend's best friend here and i liked him very much as well.
We had a goodbye party for him, and that was one of those nights when everything turns out well, i felt like a princess with 5 guards in the club hahaha
Oh we had such a great time :)
I was driving that night, so everyone kept on saying poor me becaues i can't drink LoL
I am honest when i say i only need good mood and great company to enjoy myself a lot, not alcohol - that one is only making me sick actually hahahah
We shaked our ass like never before :) Love to party with my love^^

After everyone left, and the exams finished we have plenty of time, but not enough money to do whatever we want, but we are watching Two and a half man and movies like Snatch (Guy Ritchie is awesome), The Fall (beautiful places and pictures but very boring for my taste), Over the hedge (classical fav for me, i lol every time i watch it again), Law abiding citizen (brilliant movie), and an old classic the Devil's advocate.
They finally started to film new episodes of Dr.House again, so we could finally satisfy our House ADDICTION.
Belive me we drool and fall in ecstasy everytime we see a new episode.

/im off to watch The Visitor with mom and my love=Pablo/
- to be continued-